Emotional Week

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Wow, what a week.

On Saturday, Sydney hurt her knee taking a spill, and she's only about 5 or 6, so was wanting her mommy, who wasn't there during class. I went over and joined the others in giving her a hug and trying to comfort her. Then I showed her how to relieve the knee pain a bit. Thank goodness that seemed to help - she soon stopped crying and was as good as new. Class went on as usual.

All this week, with it being my last for the spring since they'll all be working on recital stuff which requires recorded music, it became so apparent how much the students enjoyed working with me. They were all sad that I wouldn't be coming back after the Easter break, and many of them came up at the end of class to give me a hug. It's one of those sad but incredibly sweet experiences! I assured them I'd be back next year. :) Feels good to know I'd be missed, though. :)

The huge upper was my aunt Kathy coming for a visit! She is here for Easter, and as she is my mom's sister, Mom was so completely and wonderfully surprised when Kathy arrived! Hehe! It was priceless! Elaine and Kathy had planned this way ahead of time, and Elaine was quite proud of herself for managing to keep it a secret until she came to the door with "her friend" who turned out to be our aunt. Hehe! Oh, that was funny! We all sat around and visited, and laughed!

Then Wednesday was a good day, work went very well.

Today I played piano for some residents at the Bethany Care Center, and my friend Pam was there today, but she was feeling down because the lady she had been taking care of, passed away.

I had a couple of very stressful times lately playing at the care center, in February the room stunk like stale urine and it not only made me feel sick, but upset as well, because then I started to think people weren't being taken care of right.

Last month, it was much better, but I was tense remembering the experience of the previous month.

This month, it went very well - but for the very end when I was just waiting for Mom to pick me up after it was over.

I was down in the main foyer or lobby or whatever you want to call it, and this old lady started talking to me. This went fine until she suddenly was overwhelmed by sadness and burst into tears.

Oh, God.

At first, it seemed like maybe she was a bit sorry for me because of my blindness - which is all too common of an attitude among people that age, but it became apparent she was feeling guilty about being sad over her own life. She told me her husband had passed away, and had dementia before that. She also told me she had once been in a car accident that could have but didn't criple her. And now she was here at the care center and she just hates being there. She told me she wished she was dead.

Oh my God!

How other than praying and putting my arms around them, can I really help people like this?

She probably thinks it could be worse - she could be blind. But if you've been blind all your life, it's completely normal for you. But I can see why she could think it would be a terrible state to be in. It's because she has good sight, so to lose it would be terrible. Just as losing my hearing or ability to use my arms and legs would be terrible for me. But someone who has always been deaf or paralyzed very likely doesn't feel it's such a big deal.

Well, I tried to hug and comfort this woman, and she did seem to regain some of her composure by the time Mom and my aunt had arrived, and someone else was there to take over, so I could leave and know I did my best.

Though I was stressed, going to Tim Horton's, and then later having dinner with my parents and aunt, watching TV with them etc. kept my emotions at bay.

But here I am, on my own, and it's hitting me pretty hard now.

I don't know what's going on tomorrow, but Saturday is the family Easter brunch, and I am looking forward to it, even more than usual, because Aunt Kathy is going to be part of our gathering this year! I'm sorry my nephew Colin can't be here for it this year, but we'll save some great food for him.

So, that's about it.

Until next time, ciao.

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